Jessica’s Diary – Excerpts

…I can’t seem to find a way to have a heart to heart talk with David. Today was his 12th birthday and he seemed happy enough with his new football and fishing rod but he stayed long enough to be polite and then disappeared. He has always been withdrawn with me but he is the same with Roger. Roger keeps saying he’ll grow out of it but nothing seems to be changing.

…Why does always choose to spend most of his time playing those violent sports. Now he wants to join the rugby team as if playing football is not dangerous enough. What is wrong with sticking to baseball…he is their star player.

…I have never been close to my son. I feel like a lousy mother. He never tells anyone he loves them including his father. But I’m his mother. I have always tried to hug him and he always ‘gave in’ but now he just pushed me away with a polite peck on the cheek. polite polite polite he is always so polite.

…Roger is not happy that I took David to a doctor. What could I say??? My son doesn’t talk to me, my son spends his time alone, my son has no friends??? Why do you think there is something wrong jessica…a mothers’ instinct, a feeling? Yes, Roger there is something wrong can’t you see that…

…Oh my God, they have escaped and David is missing. escaped i know he has escaped. find him find himmm please before he hurts someone find him

…no news no fuckin news where the hell is he. they couldn’t tell me anything they are still combing through the rubble. one week still nothing

…dead animals in the yard. All over the place, horrible. No just behind the trees near the foot path. Don’t worry he says, yes my love I am worried. Who finds a pile of dead animals in their back yard? Roger talk to David pleasee. He must talk to him…no animal piles bodies like that!

…Stephen made a pass at me and I felt angry at first. I love Roger but I liked it. I feel so damn guilty…i really wanted to. I still feel excited whenever I think about it, he is coming tomorrow can’t be close to him too much, not for the moment anyway.

Diary is Gone

What kind of game are you playing, Lorey? I have just spoken with Jessica, her diary has been stolen! She is out of it, freaked out and distraught. You bastard, stop with posts. Stop bringing up the past. I am coming to see you for a nice long talk…

Carl Stokes

Old News is Good News

Memories…

TWO BODIES FOUND IN RIVER…the deaths do not appear accidental as first thought…signs of rape, torture… May 18, 2001

ANOTHER BODY HAS BEEN FOUND IN RAWDON…police deny there is a connection with the murders last month…June 3, 2001

SERIAL KILLER PROWLS THE TOWN OF RAWDON…officials were forced to admit that there exists a connection with the fourth body discovered yesterday and that of the other three the past few months…August 7, 2001

SUSPECT DETAINED IN KILLINGS…a local resident, David Gaines, has been detained for questioning. Police officials won’t admit he is a suspect but are questioning him after a fifth victim has been discovered buried on his mother’s property…November 12, 2001

CONVICTED SERIAL KILLER AND EX-NAVY SEAL ENGINEER AN EXPLOSIVE ESCAPE…prison officials admit that David Gaines and Carl Stokes,an Ex Navy Seal, were probably the masterminds behind the deadly prison break that left fifty-eight prisoners dead and two guards critically injured…March 01,2007

…and the questions remain. Where is Carl Stokes? What ever happened to Jessica? Hospital, you say, where? I know where. Was Jeff Lorey really an asshole? Is he still?

A gift is what I have. I have Jessica’s diary! Soooo cool. I wish to share it with the world!

Resident of Rawdon

I have been living in Rawdon for the past fourteen years and have spoken with Jessica Gaines on many occasions at city hall. She was the ‘go to’ person who got things done! A good looking woman? Sure, but that wasn’t what made her so attractive or interesting. She was intelligent and resourceful and as the assistant to the mayor I have no doubt she was irreplaceable.

I am so sorry about what has happened to her but deep within me I can’t help thinking there should have been something someone could have done to prevent the slaughter.

What about the victims? Who is to blame? Now, after the facts are in it seems obvious there were problems with that kid. I regret that Jessica was shunned by the people of this town but they were scared and angry. There are still kids missing, a lot of questions but no answers.

How could she not have known. Three of the victims were found buried less than a hundred yards from her home! I am sick and tired of all these reports of crazies who had hidden a cache of arms or worse bodies in their basement and nobody noticed! She has to bear some responsibility for what happened. There are a lot of people to blame in this tragedy and they should be made accountable for their actions or lack there of.

What about the victims?

Dan – resident of Rawdon

Jessica Gaines – First words

Hello,

Hi, I have been told that it is necessary for me to remember in order to heal. I am able to think clearly as the medication begins to wear off. The heat builds up in my head, my stomach tightens and the world begins to spin. The pain is unbearable and the nightmares begin, when I remember.

He is my son. I love him. I cannot hate him. I see his face, my baby. I didn’t know, I couldn’t know.

I am to blame. Everyone blames me. I am so so sorry… I hear the screams of his victims and see the faces in black and white floating in the air. Accusing

I don’t want to remember

Carl find Sykes…….

Jessica Gaines

Carl – Nervous?

Are you have trouble putting your thoughts into words?

Caricature? Probably. If the same trauma and shock affects all veterans who have experienced the same tragedies that occur during a war, then yes I am a caricature, a bad cliche and proud of it.

Remove the language you find so offensive and publish the two emails I sent you. Better yet, for the sake of ‘truth’ give me the permissions to publish them myself. This is supposed to be a public forum. Right?

Carl Stokes

To Carl

It’s nice to hear from you after all these years. You may have noticed that I have deleted a couple of your posts. I invite you to participate but I won’t accept your vulgar language or your bullying in this forum.

You were the one responsible for the explosions at the prison and city hall. At times you were more dangerous than Gaines and everyone else. Ex-Navy Seal gone crazy, a poor caricature of a shell-shocked veteran. Why were you in prison anyway? Where are you hiding now? I hold you responsible for the assault on city hall , why didn’t you negotiate?

Join this forum if you want. I will publish it if it is readable.

Jeff Lorey

To Detective Robert

In order to write my book factually I have interviewed many people who knew Roger Gaines and Jessica. There were many who seemed to think there were problems at home and it was no secret that Roger was often seen not only at Joe’s but at other bars around town. Jessica spoke often of her son’s problems and I felt it was necessary to include certain facts in order to try to understand what happened in David Gaines past to form him into the killer he would become later in life.

The truth needs to be told if we can hope to begin to answer some fundamental questions on what it was that made this man into a monster.

Jeff Lorey

Carl Stokes

Bullshit! Your writing sucks! You were a hack even before you squirmed your little ass into our lives. Where do you come off passing yourself as an insider. You were lucky you didn’t get yourself killed and you probably should have been! Sykes planned everything not Gaines, you little fuck. Its creeps like you that piss me off with their fascination with serial killers and rapists! Do you think it takes intelligence to follow poor defenseless women around and kill and rape them? Gaines was a stupid psychopathic idiot who took pleasure in the pain and suffering of others. Nothing intelligent ever came out of his rotting mind!

I will be reading closely all this crap you are now sending out to the world. Believe me I won’t let you distort the facts like you did in that rag you call a book!

Carl Stokes

Detective Hugh Robert

Judging from your last post you inferred that Roger may have had a drinking problem and that he was unable to take care of his family. I was his partner for six years and he never had a drinking problem! A couple of beers does not a drunk make! Jessica knew there was something not quite right with her son but the doctors and school authorities assured her that there was nothing wrong! David was the high school baseball star and apart from him liking to spend his time alone, I saw nothing that could predict what he would become later on. He didn’t make friends easily but he carried the same baggage as most teenagers do at that stage.

Before you begin to make judgments I suggest you get your facts straight!

Hugh Robert

Jessica Gaines

A strong and beautiful woman who had to cope with a son who was strange and withdrawn. Maybe if she had had more support she would have seen what this boy would become later on. Her husband, a police officer, had to cope with his own stress. Did he know what was going on with his son all those years? Maybe that is why he spent so much time away from home. He was also well known at Joe’s where he would go for a few drinks after work. His suicide after his son had been charged with all those murders was probably the best solution he could think of to finally escape the guilt he felt from his inability to help his family.

Jessica was the strong one. She believed in her son’s innocence until he was finally found guilty on all counts. She went to court every day for the entire year. She buried her husband and saw her son sent to prison for the rest of his life. Who could blame her afterwards if she began to drink and seek the comfort and security of strangers. Who could blame her for finally breaking down. The end result of this sad affair was no surprise to me.

Jeff Lorey

David Gaines

I was going to write the list of those who escaped and the list of hostages involved but I decided to concentrate my efforts on those who were the most important players in this drama.

David Gaines – The serial killer.

Although he was imprisoned for raping and killing eight women in the town of Rawdon, he probably was responsible for many more unsolved murders in the area. Although he refused to admit this to me in my conversations with him, I am sure there were a few from the Montreal area that he was responsible for. I am still investigating this possibility.

It took police years to close this case and send this cold methodical killer to prison. Proof of his intelligence and planning can be seen in the way he masterminded his escape from prison and his takeover of city hall and the hostage crisis he created.

He was a huge monster of a man whose manner of walking and talking scared those around him. Even the most hardened and meanest of criminals would treat this man with respect and keep their distance. There were always six guards with him whenever he was taken anywhere around the prison. His cold eyes were black and would look right through people as if they didn’t exist. I have often seen that same look in predatory animals as they sized up there next victim.

Jeff Lorey

The Escape.

They escaped and destroyed most of the prison in the process. It was a brilliant plan developed by a psychopathic serial killer over a one year period of preparation. What can I say, something screwed up as it always does. Too much explosive and the north wall fell along with the side of the prison exposing the inner cells inside. The building looked obscene and naked, beds and sheets hanging while papers and personnel belongings were tossed all over the area. Blood was everywhere and the screams of the injured could be heard all over the compound.

Of the nine men who had planned the escape, two were killed outright while another one lay writhing in the rubble. He later died from his injuries. The other six were relatively unscathed and made their way over the debris through what used to be a wall and into the surrounding forest where they made their escape.

Hundreds had been injured due to the overcrowded conditions (no surprise there) at the facility and fifty-six men lay dead. It would take more than a month for the authorities to identify the bodies.

( I have to go now but I will be updating this regularly from the notes I took. I am presently shopping around for a publisher and as you may know by now I was the journalist taken hostage by the escapees so come back often because I intend to reveal what it was like from the inside of all this insanity.)

Jeff Lorey